hapy new year

good bye 2009 and hello 2010!
alot of things had happend in 2009.
past is past and will never look back
well, i've got my new life now which i like it so much
and i enjoy it! muahaha!

happy new year people! :D

I Cry

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew
I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard I try
Not to wonder why

I wish I could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true
I'll never be over you

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If I could have you back tomorrow
If I could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see
You still love me

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

Done

I'm Done

i know i got no more hope. but my heart is stil loving u
yes. scold me. slap me.
im hurt. i've tried to get over it. but failed.
this is the first time i got hurt til so deep.
why? because u're the one i really love. u're the one i wana spend my life with.
i dont think my wound can be heal so easy.
or mayb won't be heal forever?
i really wish to tell u everything, the truths and the reasons.
i don't think u will even bother to listen or care.
i do still talk, i do still smile, i so still laugh in front of u all,
but in my heart, im actually crying.

im hurt even more now. u dont even wana talk to me anymore.why do u wana treat me so harshim hurt since the day we broke up. until today. i stil feel the same.i dont know wats ur mind thinking now. i wish to know.i wish that one day u wil come back and tel me that u miss me and call me, diah once again. i know its impossible.i always think that u will come back one day, i always give myself a fake hope in order to stay positive or to feel happy eventhou i know it wont happen.im not strong. nth can heal me.i thought we can last forever.im already decided to spend the rest of my life with u.but no. eeverything changed so fast..is like.. so so freaking fast.u can just tel me that u have lost feeling to me. yeah thats it.will my dream come true?i wish it could.Diah...i hope u can make my dream come true.

im hurt even more now. u dont even wana talk to me anymore.
why do u wana treat me so harsh
im hurt since the day we broke up. until today. i stil feel the same.
i dont know wats ur mind thinking now. i wish to know.
i wish that one day u wil come back and tel me that u miss me and call me, diah once again. i know its impossible.
i always think that u will come back one day, i always give myself a fake hope in order to stay positive or to feel happy eventhou i know it wont happen.
im not strong. nth can heal me.
i thought we can last forever.
im already decided to spend the rest of my life with u.
but no. eeverything changed so fast..is like.. so so freaking fast.
u can just tel me that u have lost feeling to me. yeah thats it.
will my dream come true?
i wish it could.
Diah...i hope u can make my dream come true.

Good Bye My Love

i've tried so hard to make u come back to me.
but u said u have lost feeling to me:)
and i cant force u to be with me
eventhou i love u alot. i do love u alot alot.
goodbye my love.
u gave me a hug and kiss for the last time just now
i wont be able to get em from u anymore.
i miss u. i love u.

good bye and take care.

Day 9 without you

today i woke up at 10 and went to class at 12. finish class at 1 haha. how nice right.
juz an hour class. the class dismissed early so that we able to finish up our assignment faster cos the due date is on friday. felt so happy, i took my phone out just now and nearly sms u to tell u tat i've finished class early..i used to do that last time =/
sms you whenever i finish my class or whatever i do. but now i can't do that anymore.. so, i put my hp back into my handbag..
i really hope i can do that again one day
i miss it....

i love you